"Maybe we aren't one of the 'lucky' ones."
Now, how dare we question the All-knowing!? Little ole us!? Specks of dusts!? Or if you are like myself, when you first began your walk with Christ there is a feeling that there is no way to ask or question God about what He is doing, what His plans are, or curse Him because of the pain. Are we just supposed to be obedient, suck it up, and keep going on?
"Maybe we deserved it, it's 'karma'".
"Maybe we aren't one of the 'lucky' ones."
"Maybe He just does not want me to be happy in my life." All of these thoughts are either ones that have gone through my mind in a time of trouble, or ones I have heard come from the mouths of others.
What makes it more confusing is that today there is more immediate gratification at our finger tips! Immediately we can grab an answer from the internet, chats, groups, and blogs right in the palms of our hands. We are taught to be problem solvers from youth. When there is a problem, we urge to find out "Why?". And "why?" is what drives our hearts to a yearning for any type of an answer from anywhere, but the source.
But what about the things that are not of our control?
Well, let me know if you have ever asked yourself these questions:
- "So many different types bad people! Why me!?"
- "Why does so bad happen to the good people?"
- "Why doesn't He just take away the bad people?"
- "Is he mad at me?"
- "Why me?"
- "Why now?"
These are just some questions, I assume, that may come up at least once in a lifetime of a believer. How could it not? As long as you are alive there will be a sway from immense pleasure and pain. Along my search and prayers on this question, God opened my heart to understanding exactly what I needed to share with you.
This Life isn't all we have
A very big question that I asked out loud to my surprise one day was, "Who guaranteed us a painless life!?" And if I dared to go deeper, I had more questions stemming from that one. For people who argue against the belief that there is a God, to them this life is it. There is no more after this. This is in fact the end all, be all. Most do not believe there is anything after this life, because there is little scientific proof, or experience. Yet for a believer we know that there is an eternity following this life. There is belief that the pain we feel is purposeful and does not stray from what God is planning. We may feel that we are experiencing karma, or genetics, or bad choices. But as a human being, I would hope you are not blemish free. The truth is He is ultimately the Author and Finisher of our faith. As we experience the pains of life, we are going through something spiritual. If during those times you are going before the Lord, and letting Him know the pain, the agony, the fears you have, there is an opportunity for Him to speak to you and send you either peace in those moments, or an answer from unlikely places. So yes asking Him for wisdom and understanding in what is going on, may not always get an immediate, audible answer. Instead you will start to see where and how He is working in other places. Spiritual growth is necessary for your eternity.
We have Freedom to Choose
And asking Him "why?" should not be a guilt trip into making Him change anything.
Believe it or not, understand it now, or understand it later, He knows our needs far better than we do!
Do you remember the stories of Jonah and the whale? What about Saul? What about Adam and Eve?
On this earth we have choices. Probably more in this age than once before. We have access to so much, including the Truth. When going through this life that is designed and orchestrated for us, we have to remember that God is nor far from us, though we tend tune Him out. We also roam the earth with the enemy on our heals. Yet God sees the decisions, the guilt, the secrets, and He still chose to wake us up. He has taken some unlikely situations and used them for a purpose. We have choices to turn around right now with no fear of being struck down by Him. We have understanding that no matter what you did, you have access to the right choices. You can thank Jesus for that!! By Adam, we were all sent away from the garden forever. But following Genesis to Jesus we learn, "It is Finished!"(John 19:30) We are free to make choices and mistakes, and free to enjoy the joy we are meant to have in this life.
For our Joy
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance” (James 1:2-3)
Through some painful, agonizing situations that have happened in people's life, the calling out to God, emotion, and raw understanding that everything is not always perfect nor will it ever be, there is a joy that follows. Knowing that He is right there, day by day. In those times He is working on you. You are noticing the smaller picture, in your timing. The bigger picture becomes clearer as you live through tough moments on your way to understanding. People have written songs, poetry, art, books, movies, sermons through some pain. The love that follows heartbreak. The lessons learned that are learned over time. The foundations, laws, and organizations started because of something that happened. There is no manual of life, but rest assure as people experience the situations and make it through, there lessons meant to bless the generations.
Think about this. Jesus went through trauma and agony on our behalf. You! He took your sins, your transgressions, crying in blood! He trumped death for you. And He let you know He is eternally yours. Count it all on Joy!!
What should I do?
- Ask God for strength and to examine your heart for doubt, when there should be unshakable faith even through pain.
- Watch your habits of praying and mood when you encounter areas of doubt or lack of faith
- Pray for wisdom and understanding
Proverbs 2:2-5 says
"Making your ear attentive to wisdom and inclining your heart to understanding; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God"
- Ask for His help going through the pain and don't deny it when it comes in many different forms
- Go through it, not around it, or over it, through it.
- Don't stop living! It would be like making it though 1/3 of the movie. Even though it makes you cry and turn away for a moment. Finish it.